dun understand..........................

hey....
its been long time i don't write any on this page... erm..
i'm having such a hard+critical day everyday....
people around me.. always changed...
always gone... move away...
he's the one who made me realize that i have to be strong on my life...
bcz he will not always with me...
even though in the middle of sadness..
i have to be alone ~
erm..
he told me... can u understand me?
erm.. am i not understand him until now?
we had been 5years together....
i'm the one who's not understand him or he's the one that can't understand about me?
i gave all my life for him... my time, my attention, my love, my money n etc...
i shared with him....
i never keep any secrets from him...
i'm being so honest.. so naive...
coz i think i love him so much...
that's why i'm being like that...
am i not his lover?
is he love me?
is he want me to be him?
is he be honest with me until now?
what type of secrets he keeps from me until this moment?
i know he keep so much secrets from me...
but... i always give my hand for him...
i lend my ears...
i always be with him whenever he needs me...
i need him in my whole entire life...
erm...
in a nut shell...
i juz wanna tell u guys...
i love him so much..
seriously...
hope to have the happy ending in our life...
pray to GOD... amin~~

people have to change?for God sake...i'm totally blank...

today....
i've realized that sometimes people will change with the reasons or without the reasons..
someone who's so closed with me..
she too much changed...
her attitude, her smiles, her emotions, her strengh, her time and all about her...
totally changed....
i don't have any idea why she being like that lately...
it's all about me?
am i burden her all the time?
am i disturbing her life?
next...
the most guy that's so closed with me...
he also changed a lot...
am i do any mistake?
why he seems like another person?
he shouts at me, he make me sad, cry...
why all the day, he have to do all those things?
people always change...
but...
i'm the one who will wait for them always and all the time..
i don't care if they make me sad, cry, mad, and etc again and again..
but...
i still wait for them...
because i love them so much....
i love them all of my heart...
i love them more than myself....
i hope one day, you guys will find me....
thanks a lot....

pabila daku tension....

hye!
today i'm so stress...
with my classes...
new prof, lecturer...
oh.. i felt sick when prof told us about her rules...
we have to listen and do it as what she told us...
just like in kindergarten...
what the heck is that??
i didn't have any rules before with any lecturer...
but...
i don't know...
she's too my rules!
ermm...
i went back from class....
think about foods..
what am i gonna to cook for tonight...
then...
i know...
eventhough it's just a simple one..
but, i'm so proud of myself..
i'm do it with myself ONLY!
so..plz....
take a look at the result....
:)

kebosanan ketodakkan

today...
so bored...
same as the weather...
what the heck is going on with my life?
too suck~
i hate being myself right now....
someone told me...
i have to find friends... to color my life...
i do have friends...
erm..
i just need someone be with me...
is it too difficult?
emm.. my world become gloomy...
i hope....
people will look towards me...

rindu.....

hye...
last thursday, i went back to my hometown...
i felt too excited..
coz i really missed my family..
i arrived at jb station at 23.00pm...
after saw my ibu and ayah face, my heart became so happy and relax...
wah.....i missed them so much!
erm..
next week i will start my new semester..
aja aja!